I'm currently sat in Rory's office, using the computer of one of his colleagues who's currently absent. It seems that this computer has never been used before, it asked me for internet connection settings when I loaded up the browser. Very strange.
I'm going home today. The flight is scheduled to leave at 1pm, we're setting off for the airport in half an hour or so. I don't want to leave, I've had fun since we stopped arguing, and I get hugs on demand. Plus I woke up feeling I like I was getting a cold this morning, so the sympathy and Lemsips would be appreciated. My dad's collecting me from the airport at 2pm, we're probably going to the supermarket afterwards. Food has been very bad whilst I've been here, hopefully getting back onto familiar ground will help me regain some control. Tonight Simon's coming to see
Four Planes In Four Days with me, at the Packhorse. I'm nervous about going as last week David sent me a message saying he was "only slightly offended" by my description of him in the
cast list. I don't know if this was some kind of joke, or if I truly upset him. I find it very hard to gauge people's true emotions unless I'm sitting next to them, and even then I still have difficulties. I only wrote the truth about him. A little bluntly maybe, I'll concede that, but I would never publish anything which I thought would upset someone else. Tonight will be a chance to get that cleared up at least.
Yesterday, Rory and I went for another walk. This time we went up to the
university and through the
Botanic Gardens. It was lovely, very picturesque and green. I took some photographs, I'll get to see how they turned out when I get home. We went through the Palm House and Tropical Ravine, there were many varied species of plants, though it wasn't as good as
the trip to Tropical World.
Sitting next to the Botanical Gardens is
Ulster Museum. I demanded we go in and see what they were offering. Inside was a display of dinosaurs, featuring the head of a Tyrannosaurus Rex. Inexplicably, they had a small pond with some turtles swimming in it. I loved them, I could have sat and watched them for hours. Other features at the museum included machines for making linen, and items which had been made in Belfast throughout the ages, including bricks, medals, sweets, ships, aeroplanes and so on. There was an Innuit display too, featuring some cayaks and clothing, amongst other items, and an Egyptian room, with pottery, jewellry, papyrus and a mummy. She was exceedingly well preserved, her skin was black, and her hair still attached to her head. It was most strange.
The main exhibition there was on Conflict in Ireland. It ran through from the earliest times to modern day. There was weaponry items from all periods on display, and clothing from the 1600's onwards. From the turn of last century, they also showed other items such as ration books, gas masks, letters, medals, photographs and the like. And, inevitably, children's drawings of how awful it all was and how we should all be friends. It was very well done, and afterwards there was a space where you could sit to gather your thoughts or learn more about a certain area.
We have to leave for the airport soon. I can feel my nerves building, the tension rising. I don't want to go home, to have to go back to my parents and my eating and my depression and my loneliness. But I have to.
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