Sunday, February 1
Looking at the map of all the countries I haven't been to has got me thinking. I want to go see the world! I want visit Paris and Rome and Prague and Reykjavik and Venice and Amsterdam and more. So I've decided I'm going to do it. It means saving money up, but I have quite a bit in the bank right now, which is a good start. I'll need much more though, so I'm going to wait twelve months, that should be more than enough time to accumulate the necessary funds. And what point is money if you don't spend it? I've never understood that. So next year, some time in 2005, I'm going to go travel round Europe. And it's going to be ace, damn it.
But that's not enough. There's things I want to do now which I can do, it's just a question of picking a quiet weekend or week and being organised. Thus I've decided within the next six months I want to have been to see Cinnamon in Sheffield; to possibly go see Ed in Cardiff; to have finally made it to the
Film and Photography Museum as a "supporting work" effort for my photography course; to be taking regular exercise; to have read at least 20 of my unread books; to be eating a more balanced diet; and probably lots of other things I can't remember right now.
I'm determined. I can't waste my life just playing Minesweeper and
Snood for hours every day. If I want to become the person I want, the person I can be, someone to admire and respect, I need to take control. I'll never "burn in bright colours and go pop, be giddy, impulsive and silly, kiss people in new places - exquisitely - and dare to tear things apart" with my current lifestyle. And it's the perfect time to make this resolution too. It's currently Imbolc, the festival of the start of Spring, of new beginnings, a celebration of the signs of hope of banishment of the dark and winter. (Was there too many "of"s in that sentence?) So I make my pact with myself, change is on the horizon, so mote it be.
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